Haven't been doing any more crossovers cause of school and homework and our living room being repainted and stuff. I nearly took all my crossover stuff down on sunday night because after i'd done that pic of danny and sam dancing, it perfectly combining something that i love so much with something that plagues me with constant thoughts and obsession, after that i felt so empty, like any passion i had for anything had just burned out, even when i read dxs fanfics that had previously made me cry with happiness. i was so scared that that would be the end of my love for dxs, it's been a part of who i am for so long, and i've held on with my fingertips through all of my previous obsessions, i have been so scared that this is finally gonna push me over the edge. I've seen so many DP fanartists who absolutely loved the series, but they faded away from it and found other fandoms, i can't do that, i won't do that. because when i am watching or reading dxs, it feels so good, happy and warm inside me, but anything else feels good, but wrong, drugs probably have the same feeling, but it's your body's reaction and not your head. when i am addicted to something its there all the time, and strong, dxs feeling isn't always there but when it comes its 100 times stronger. watching Blackpool for the first time made me feel great, but when i watched one dxs video after that, i was crying with happiness. but whenever i think about dxs now, a Blackpool song just starts playing in my head and drowns it out.[the songs are a bit dated but really catchy and well done nonetheless] i still find myself watching it over and over, reading about it, writing down the lyrics to the songs in class, singing them when i'm alone [cause i can't even hum in tune, plus people don't generally start singing in public...well...i know somewhere they do, there i go again ]. David Tennant dosent help sexy, sexy man i was looking at a 2010 horse calendar in the supermarket today when my mum says, 'look theres a Doctor Who one' she picks up the calendar and i have to look away. ugh, its still there, just buried by something that shows a different side to his acting skills, a side which appeals *much* more to the hopeless romantic i am, thats what always gets me hooked after all.

ha. people are just gonna look at this and say. wow, she needs a boyfriend. i do, not desperately cause i feel fine being single, but i'm generally too shy to even talk to a guy that already knows me, cause i have a reputation at school and i know that guys aren't gonna be interested in what i have to say, even just to talk, i'm different, but i don't care. i want to be different, i can't change who i am just to be accepted by the people who care what i look like and what music i listen to and what clothes i wear and what my hair looks like. i am who i am and no one is gonna bloody well change that. so i'll just wait for a fresh start with someone who dosent automatically think i'm a freak. ah well, Shyanne is dating a man her dad's age, and David is nowhere near my dad's age...

So i'm convincing myself it's just the obsession doing this is helping, i can't resist it in the early stages, so i'm just gonna go with it and read some dxs fics to feel better. its kinda good that theres no Blackpool section on ff.net although theres enough fans out there somewhere. . .mostly DT lovers but still...
gonna continue with the crossover when i feel a bit better about it and the front room is done so i can get to my desk and tablet through the stuff piled into the new room. Nobody really looks at the crossover part anyway so i don't see why i should bother, i love it that people like my DP art, but they should at least understand WHY i made it that way. So more crossover ensues!! [ i like that word, ensues. not entirely 100% on what it means but its pretty awesome.]
Heres a list of what i'm gonna do till i get some DP inspiration:
The Gambler - Dash, Danny [and icecream ], Sam and maybe Tucker. Shipless
The Boy With The Thorn In His Side - Danny, uhh..random guy playing Danny [lol blackpool danny not DP danny], Tucker and maybe guys in white [good dancing background cops ]Shipless
Cupid - Sam, Dash, Danny, Maddie. Slight DxS
Always Something There To Remind Me - Danny, Dash, Sam, Maddie, Jack [if i can be bothered] DxS, JackxMaddie
Danny's oral fixation - as in eating everything not tied down Shipless
Can I Hold Your Hand/Kiss You? - Danny, Sam. DxS [that scene was so cute ]
Fish Supper - [lol] Danny, Sam. DxS
Maybe a Rolling machine thing as well. [might even animate it if i can be bothered] maybe the danny winking one

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