Haven't been doing any more crossovers cause of school and homework and our living room being repainted and stuff. I nearly took all my crossover stuff down on sunday night because after i'd done that pic of danny and sam dancing, it perfectly combining something that i love so much with something that plagues me with constant thoughts and obsession, after that i felt so empty, like any passion i had for anything had just burned out, even when i read dxs fanfics that had previously made me cry with happiness. i was so scared that that would be the end of my love for dxs, it's been a part of who i am for so long, and i've held on with my fingertips through all of my previous obsessions, i have been so scared that this is finally gonna push me over the edge. I've seen so many DP fanartists who absolutely loved the series, but they faded away from it and found other fandoms, i can't do that, i won't do that. because when i am watching or reading dxs, it feels so good, happy and warm inside me, but anything else feels good, but wrong, drugs probably have the same feeling, but it's your body's reaction and not your head. when i am addicted to something its there all the time, and strong, dxs feeling isn't always there but when it comes its 100 times stronger. watching Blackpool for the first time made me feel great, but when i watched one dxs video after that, i was crying with happiness. but whenever i think about dxs now, a Blackpool song just starts playing in my head and drowns it out.[the songs are a bit dated but really catchy and well done nonetheless] i still find myself watching it over and over, reading about it, writing down the lyrics to the songs in class, singing them when i'm alone [cause i can't even hum in tune, plus people don't generally start singing in public...well...i know somewhere they do, there i go again ]. David Tennant dosent help sexy, sexy man i was looking at a 2010 horse calendar in the supermarket today when my mum says, 'look theres a Doctor Who one' she picks up the calendar and i have to look away. ugh, its still there, just buried by something that shows a different side to his acting skills, a side which appeals *much* more to the hopeless romantic i am, thats what always gets me hooked after all.

ha. people are just gonna look at this and say. wow, she needs a boyfriend. i do, not desperately cause i feel fine being single, but i'm generally too shy to even talk to a guy that already knows me, cause i have a reputation at school and i know that guys aren't gonna be interested in what i have to say, even just to talk, i'm different, but i don't care. i want to be different, i can't change who i am just to be accepted by the people who care what i look like and what music i listen to and what clothes i wear and what my hair looks like. i am who i am and no one is gonna bloody well change that. so i'll just wait for a fresh start with someone who dosent automatically think i'm a freak. ah well, Shyanne is dating a man her dad's age, and David is nowhere near my dad's age...

So i'm convincing myself it's just the obsession doing this is helping, i can't resist it in the early stages, so i'm just gonna go with it and read some dxs fics to feel better. its kinda good that theres no Blackpool section on ff.net although theres enough fans out there somewhere. . .mostly DT lovers but still...
gonna continue with the crossover when i feel a bit better about it and the front room is done so i can get to my desk and tablet through the stuff piled into the new room. Nobody really looks at the crossover part anyway so i don't see why i should bother, i love it that people like my DP art, but they should at least understand WHY i made it that way. So more crossover ensues!! [ i like that word, ensues. not entirely 100% on what it means but its pretty awesome.]
Heres a list of what i'm gonna do till i get some DP inspiration:
The Gambler - Dash, Danny [and icecream ], Sam and maybe Tucker. Shipless
The Boy With The Thorn In His Side - Danny, uhh..random guy playing Danny [lol blackpool danny not DP danny], Tucker and maybe guys in white [good dancing background cops ]Shipless
Cupid - Sam, Dash, Danny, Maddie. Slight DxS
Always Something There To Remind Me - Danny, Dash, Sam, Maddie, Jack [if i can be bothered] DxS, JackxMaddie
Danny's oral fixation - as in eating everything not tied down Shipless
Can I Hold Your Hand/Kiss You? - Danny, Sam. DxS [that scene was so cute ]
Fish Supper - [lol] Danny, Sam. DxS
Maybe a Rolling machine thing as well. [might even animate it if i can be bothered] maybe the danny winking one

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Dr Who obsession passing already i think. Being replaced with Blackpool obsession, or maybe David Tennant obsession, kay i admit being a DT fangirl now, but i will restrain myself from squealing mindlessly like i've seen so many on youtube already lol Blackpool is very...umm...quirky. with all the (lol) singing and (lol) dancing. I guess you could call it a musical. But its got a MURDER investigation in it. [A "veRee seeReeus cRaeem"] if DT didn't lure me into watching it then that would of. [yes i'm the kinda person who watches crime dramas and cheers everytime a body is found, not quite, but i love murder mystery stuff ] but there was only one murder in this . but the investigation goes on for all of the 6 episodes so i can't complain.

I'm already plotting a crossover with DP... hmm. . . Danny as a hot seedy copper [scottish accent optional ] with an obsession with cakes, pastries, icecream and Sam also dancing with Dash to 'These Boots Are Made For Walking' hmmm [yes i think dash would make a good Ripley ] but Sam [unhappily] married to Dash?? *shudder* not even gonna think about that part *bad, bad mental images please go away.*



Thank You, Thank you very much! *shot by elvis impersonator*

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Doctor Who is my new addiction and its worse than all my other addictions. it almost physically hurts. I am a person who gets easily hooked on stuff. and yes i do kinda get withdrawl symptoms [sweating, feeling like there's an ache inside you an ultra adrenaline rush when i'm watching whatever i'm addicted to etc.] I call it obsession or addiction. i described it once to my mum and she said it sounded like i was in love. it is exactly like being in love. Unrequited love definately cause i know what that feels like plus it hurts. it only happens when there is a kind of shipping involved. It all started sometime early last year i am still an avid Kataang/Maiko shipper. it didn't hurt unless i wanted someone else to watch it. cause if i like something then i kinda want everyone else to like it too. don't know whether thats normal or not. to some extent i guess it is. with avatar when someone else was watching it with me my heart would beat so fast i thought i would have a heart attack or something. but after i'd shown it to everyone i wanted to see it [after the finale] then the addiction just went away. i can now watch avatar and stuff without fear of being addicted. then came The Mummy franchise. in the summer i saw an advert on TV for the mummy 3 tomb of the dragon empereor. i went and saw it with my friend Alice and i loved it. the week later i went and saw it again. i bought the two previous DVDs and watched them the same day. they were amazing. i was now really addicted. everyday all i would do after school is sit in bed and watch them. this carried on until the third film came out on dvd. six months of addiction. i hated it. i was bored of the movies but i still had to watch them. i saw the third movie again and realised it was awful. it stopped a bit after that.

Then i saw the Twilight movie and you can guess what happened. i went to see it 4 times in the cinema and watched some of those awful quality recorded-in-the-cinema versions on the internet most nights. i wanted everybody to love it too etc. i was starting to get over it when a brand new series of Hustle came out in January. It involved two new members Sean [matt di angelo ] and Emma [Kelly Adams]. in the course of the 5th season, Mickey and Emma fall for each other. and i got addicted see a pattern developing here?

i was addicted to hustle until i read the twilight series books. i was gonna wait until the next film came out but i knew i was gonna give in sooner or later, and i got the books for my birthday i was addicted again but i was happy that i actually knew the stories before getting addicted to the film as i had done before. quite a while later, few months ago actually, i looked in more depth at the saga again. i saw that bella is a self-inserted mary sue, no doubt about that, most of the anti-twilight stuff isn't true, sparkling isn't that lame and Edward isn't abusive. most of the things actually could be scientifically possible, but bella and edward are lacking in the realness and personality departments. i did mary sue litmus tests on them and they came up as Irredemable-Sues but the books are well written, albeit using the word 'chagrined' WAY too many times. the twilight addiction still hadn't passed completely until i got so fed up with it that i wrote 'I will not read Twilight' on the back of my hand in my own blood [don't worry i wasn't self harming or anything, a mosquito bite was bleeding that shows that i have a really messed up head to even think of anything like that but i was thinking along the 'vampire' lines at that moment, kay. i normally hate blood] i havent read it since.

nice period of calm and happy dxs time then which was great. my obsessions take me away from DP and stuff. its weird cause although i am obsessed with DxS, its in a good way. like Requited Love, feeling warm and happy when i think about it

Then a few weeks ago, not sure how long exactly, i watched Doctor Who at school. I've seen it before and thought it was really good. it was the episode 'Being Human' i watched it at school but the bell for prep went before it ended so i watched the last bit at home. 'John Smith' fell in love with the Matron. i could see that they liked each other when i saw it at school, but then they kissed and then, well i was hooked again. i knew it wasn't gonna be canon for long etc etc, they wouldn't stay together because john smith was the doctor etc etc but i couldn't help it. i watched a few more episodes of series 3 and was even more hooked. it was fine until recently with only a few things popping up that made me think of it [like the reverend in his chapel presentation on choices HAD to put a picture of david tennant leaning against the flipping TARDIS for the 'actor' choice]but when we went on holiday i started to show my dad some episodes and i spent all the time when he wasn't watching them watching them over and over again. and then when i got back i read some fanfics and its gone beyond my (ab)normal obsessing. i am constantly thinking about this one. almost everything makes me think of it. orange leaves on the trees in the woods remind me of the skies of gallifrey, a round light makes me think of the lights in the TARDIS, plus now my dad asks me if he can watch more episodes now and my mum comes up and tells me what time its on tv. the fact that its this bad may be due to a teeny crush on David Tennant...ok not so teeny...MINE he's so cheeky and a really good actor. he may not be the conventional handsome guy but he is really good looking in a different way. plus he's really sexy [see blackpool lol, i bet i'm gonna be obsessed with that now too]

why i'm burdening the world with my stupid messed up head i don't know, i've never told anyone this much of it before. dinner time now

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yay a break from school
going to devon on tuesday i think so that will be good. maybe see kate for a day or 2 *stalker* and i just remember i used to go to a riding stables in devon *spazzfoam*
i am colouring pics right now so i am not being neglectful of dA. maybe a dp kiss tutorial if i am proactive enough [and can explain things well enough] cause profiles and kisses are a bitch to draw even in DP style
i've just finished watching Spirit so i'm really teary never fails to make me cry that film, i cry in the intro voiceover

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Yay!!! new CSS finished
thank you to ~Cheesi-Girlz for supplying the photoshop + happy exeat!! yay we had saturday off school
might post the full versions of the three small pics, and some more waiting in my sketchbook for scanning and colouring. all the pics apart from the top left were drawn on paper, with a lot of staring at screencaps for hours [especially for danny's damn hair ]

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